I was tired of you, exhausted of the self-depreciation. And then, all the lies, doubts, and guilt just dissipated. Everything changed in that one random moment; understanding how to cope with my reality and being true to myself had never been so clear. The revelations were like recovering from a drug addiction - disposing of a toxic habit after long months of rehab.
The sensations of my surroundings felt real again. The scratchy carpet was rough against my skin and the light was near blinding. And the hot, sticky air coated my lungs. But it was fresh - the first breath of fresh air after months of suffocation.
vindication at nineteen
